<p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 0.5in; line-height: normal;"><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";">Some addictions are easier to get wrapped up in than others. Heroin is one of the worst drugs out there, and I let it control me. I never thought that the initial shoot up would suck me in the way it did. Having heroin readily available within five minutes at any given time, I became custom to waking up every morning to immediately take that initial fix and it continued sporadically throughout the day. I felt that as long as I was high, I could do anything and I felt invincible. I lived each day repeating the same cycle running my own video production company to support the habit. While I was high I felt work to be enjoyable, and I also thought that nobody knew that I was using heroin; so I thought. I tried hard to conceal my addiction, so I wore long sleeve shirts so that nobody could see the evidence of my daily abuse. <span> I started a very rapid downhill spiral into “nothingness” and into a feeling of worthlessness and uselessness. It was because of the emotional stress the heroin caused and the negative self talk I had created, that led me into attempted suicide, but I failed both times. I sought the help from my father, as I knew he was waiting for me to make the responsible decision, and he already had made arrangements to put me into rehab. <span> I stayed in rehab for a full year as I was committed to getting my life back on track. The first few months of rehab were some of the hardest times in my life being strapped down to a table to restrain me from causing injury to others or myself. <span> I have been clean for almost 4 years and I realize now that my life has meaning and purpose.<span> I value those lessons in my life and they have made me value who I am and what I can accomplish.<span>
Well I went out to start the truck the other day, and it started but then it acted like it was gonna die and I smelled gas. Looking at the gas gauge there is no gas opps. I am gonna have to go and put some fuel in a gas tank and then start it up take it to the station and fill'er up. Hopefully next week I will make a progress on Operation Chevy.
As I get closer to finishing this term, I am realizing that I am still staying afloat of passing this class. Actually I hopefully will be doing more than just passing the class I hopefully will be getting a B in the class. Math is not one of my better subjects it ranks right up there with English.So I will keep track of what assignments are due and do the best that I can on them and then some more.
