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I havent done well at keeping up. Mom left us Thursday morning and I am still feeling out of sorts.  I know it will pass, but I spent so muh time w her, that I just feel lost. I know it will get better, just takes time. Thank you to those that kept me in their thoughts, it meant alot, but she has gone to be with daddy now, she is in a happier place. Sherry

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It has been chaos around here, but I am trying to get a hold of it. Missing to many shots again, love this sight to help remind me. Signed my divorce papers, I feel better. Back to work part time and it makes me tired, so my walking schedule has been uprooted. It is winter and I get tired easy when the sun is not here. I am not fighting it like I did before, I rest when I need it even if it means going to bed at 8:30 every night.  I have to keep my machine running..lol  I still feel good and trying to keep my stress in check. Mom was back in IUC from another fall, brother was in ICU too but home now. Mom might not be coming home, she may have to go back to the nursing home. I am happy over all, and surviving the best I can. Life is still a gift and I am grateful.

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I was told yesterday I am a miracle. I was sharing I had MS with one of mom's aides, and she told me,"You have MS?" I said yes. She goes, "You are doing so well, look so good." I laughed. I told her it wasnt always this way. I have been legally blind, I have walked with a cane, I have been down to where my children had to help me room to room. I just decided I take back my life, I control this illness..it will not control me. I told her I was walking daily and learning to box. I feel good and ready to take the bull by the horns. She said I was a miracle. Never thought of it that way, to blessed to feel anything but gracious.  I think the power of the mind opens doors if we choose to believe.  A life with MS is still better than no life at all.  One day a time.. I may be a work in progress, but at least theres progress...have a great day....

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I had a doctors appt this week, and I have dropped 28 pounds. I guess all this walking and boxing has paid off. I feel good, have a MRI today to see how bad the knee is. I dont want to be laid up, hope it goes well. I am happy though for the progress. Take care, sherry

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I am determined not to come out of remission, though the signs are there. I had to take 4 naps yesterday because I was so exhausted. I know when my body is not right, and I am just trying to not stress over it. I dressed myself wrong 3 times in a week, good sign MS is flairing. I even had to ask someone for my daughters cell phone number because I couldnt remember it last night, I broke down and cried, with all thats going on w mom and life. But, i feel better today, the sun is shinning and I am still alive!!! Thats a good day in my book..hugs to all, Sherry

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Just found mom has cancer, got the news late yesterday afternoon, I am just lost right now.  Lost my dad to cancer and the suffering he had is now like an image I cant replace. I dont know how to feel right now, I am just speechless. Obtaining my balance right now has just been shot to ...#!@*

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I am trying to have balance, Mom keeps me running, but I have learned to tell her no, she has to wait. She will learn patience yet from me..lol I told her I have chores to do, I have to run my house too. I cant be doing her stuff and mine, I have to have order. She took it well. When she hung up on me, I told her I didnt appreciate it, that I have to take care of the kids to, and she understood. Working on it, wish me luck

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I have pretty much met my goals early other than calking the kitchen. That is a bigger project than I anticipated. I just need a better balance in my life.

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I got ready for bed and thought of this sight, went right in there and took my shot i had almost forgotten. I am so glad this is here..

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I guess the that time has come, when the reality of the situtation hits and you have accepted it. I am at the point where I dont miss him like I did, that I dont cry anymore and letting go doesnt seem impossible. It's funny how you can go from devastation to seeing that this might be best, that maybe you werent treated the way you should have been, and its okay you're not together. I just know I dont want to go back to what it was before, I am ready to move forward. I think that is progress in itself. I am okay, and I know I will be okay from here on out!

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There were 3 ballgames last night, we were gone from 4-11, hate taking the shots before i go to bed, they keep me from sleeping, so I missed one. Will take it early this morning. I feel guilty.

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I took my shot but didnt want to. It hurt bad and bled, this is what I hate. Now i have to wait to go to bed or I can lay on my right side (today was hip).  Add the muscle sorenes already appearing and if I'm not careful could wind up cranky..lol