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I did it.  The emotional ones were interesting.  I didn't like it but i did learn more about me.  Anyway, I am going to just go back to my  old ones for now.

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well, that emotional recording ofaffirmations and experiences was too much for me...right now.   did not want to hear myself crying everyday.  but i did it until the end of the month.

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Well, I hit that emotional place in my experiences as affirmations recording...but I don't really enjoy hearing myself in such an emotional place on a daily basis.  I'm going to stick with the plan for the month, but can't continue on this path next month.

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I continued with the same affirmations.  It is soothing...but starting to loose appeal.  I think I'm going to focus my affirmations on a topic for next week.

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I did the experience as affirmations the first week.  I must admit that it was quite emotional to think of these positive realities of my life.  It has fast become a favorite.

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This has been a very rewarding month.  i can definitely see affirmations being a consistent part of my life.  This was my first time spending an entire month using affirmations and it was good.  I'm happy that I've already set a goal for February that is a bit different...because it does get a bit challenging to be consistent to the same thing over and over.

They say it takes 3 weeks to make something a habit.  i can't say that it is a definitive habit...but i definitely hear the affirmations in my head when I face challenging situations...or when friends are talking to me about their hardships...or when I consider doing something that is not "treating myself" like I'm special, unique, and worthy.

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I definitely got up and listened to the affirmations this week.  It worked well.  I also did a bit more emotional eating this week.  but the affirmations really just feel good.  and I will have to set more goals related to the eating piece. This was a successful week!

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I was definitely more consistent this week.  It went way better.  Much calmer moments in general.  Still some tough moments...but all in all very good.  I can see this being part of my life for a very long time.  It is so gratifying.  I so proud of me.  I'm doing my best every day.

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starting the day (or whenever i listened) with the behaviors as affirmations was more effective than last week.  they are not bad.  they felt pretty good.  still working on the story rolling through my head when I listen to them.  some feels authentic.  meaningful.  thought-provoking.  some however feels really far-fetched. 

i will keep driving on...haven't paired affirmations with experiences yet.  feels a bit like a chore I haven't started.

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I've been listening but it has not been as exciting as the affirmations were in the beginning.  I think I have to listen to the behaviors before the behaviors before the other affirmations...first thing in the morning.   This will keep me more consistent.  I'll see if this makes a difference.

I definitely want to do the pairing.  I had a break-through this week that I really do have good memories to pair with my affirmations and it will not be as hard as I've been imaginining.  Let's see what happens.

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i'm proud of me.  i kept my promise to myself to do affirmations for a month (actually more than that as I started in november).  i can honestly state that the self-affirmation have feed me...i feel kinder to myself. 

still, affirmations are not a cure-all.  i definitely had a few moments that I slipped back into old habits.   but i can honestly state that the affirmations always reminded me of my positive attributes and possibilities/actualities.

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I must admit that I spent way more money this month than is normal because it is the holidays.   Yes that was my excuse for buying more online discount stuff including tickets to a play, a singles event, dave ramsey fpu membership, and eating out way more than i should have.

i did attempt to buy things for my family, but let the stores empty-handed because i did not want to but things that would be unwanted. 

so, it was christmas eve.  my sister came to pick me up.   we were going to make the drive to see my parents in nj.  when i placed my bags in the car i noticed that my sister had wrapped presents in  the back seat.

it was the evening and we stopped at cvs to get cash for the many tolls we were going to pass on the way.  i was frantically trying to buy gifts for my family in cvs.  it was getting ridiculous.  I was getting ready to buy electronic toothbrushes and magazines and snacks.  then, so crazy, dave ramsey's (personal finance personality) radio show theme song came on.  i never knew that it was a real song (meaning not just a radio theme song).

that song just got and my head and started thinking "what are you doing buying this stuff that no one will remember a month from now?"  I returned all of the items to their original place.

when i got back to the car, i explained the coincidental musical happening in cvs.  my sister laughed, "i guess you haven't heard other listeners talk about hearing dave ramsey's song..." during shopping hauls.  never have.  apparently it is a common occurence.  i think the group is called the bakers.

that definitely saved me $25-$35 of what would have been appreciated but truly unneccessary gifts.